Sunday, January 31, 2010

Happy Sunday

Today is so bitter cold, I am happy to have gone to my step class and to now be home all cozy with my schoolbooks getting ready to study. I don't want to go outside anymore today! Maybe once more later on this evening to take a shower at the gym because right now we have no hot water. It's just as annoying as it sounds. It gets to be around 11 degrees outside at night, so not having hot water is not fun.

I'm on my third step class, and I already have a sense for the choreography. Not only that, I can keep up with the class without marching in place for about a half an hour. The first class I was confused the entire time, the second class I picked up one or two forms, and the third class, I can definitely tell a huge improvement, and I am impressed with how quickly I picked it up. My body can't necessarily keep up with the workout yet, but I'm definitely doing much better than I did in the beginning!

Bellydance is awesome, we had our first lesson in the beledy style, which is from Egypt! I have been practicing everyday just while walking around the house, and I'm getting a sense for how bellydancing is done, it's almost entirely muscle work, and it's a pretty subtle dance. Our teacher was explaining to us that she always bellydances to elevate her mood, and was talking about the location of the different chakras. The main chakra for women is in the lower abdominal region, and this is where a lot of the dancing comes from. The teacher is very warm and interesting. She's an older woman and there is something very spicy about her and the way she runs the class which makes the whole experience so enjoyable.

I am out of the 220's, and it took me 2 weeks to be able to say that but now I can say that this morning I weighed 219.8. And sure, it's not a huge change, but it counts. I can feel so much of a difference in my energy level, I am feeling strong and healthy again, and it's such a great feeling.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

It was time to change

This blog had become stale and I was bored with the background. Green is supposed to be a soothing color, and about this time in winter I really long for spring.

The gym I go to is made for men, and I know because there are mirrors everywhere. At the gym men like to check themselves out constantly and flex their muscles, have you seen them? lol!!! OK studmeister, whatever. Whereas for women we begin to see our image in the mirror and mull over the flaws in our physical appearance. I want to look at my reflection more like a man, you know? It's a more positive approach.

And you know, I used to use this tricep press machine but I never felt like my triceps ever got a workout until 2 days ago. This new machine targets the triceps from a different angle, and I certainly feel the pain!! So sore.

This morning I had a heavy breakfast, went to yoga class, then 10 minutes on the bike, and lastly I went to Step class. Step is so high intensity, the sweat just pours out of you. I don't have the moves down yet, but I definitely know more of the steps then I did 2 weeks ago. Parts of the class I can actually follow along.

I signed up for 2 non credit fitness dance classes at school- Zumba and Bellydance! Zumba is Latin dancing mixed with a workout routine and Bellydance is something I want to try, it's supposed to be excellent for self esteem, core muscle groups, and overall feeling feminine. Finally I get to use the hip scarf I bought about 2 years ago.

I weigh myself tomorrow and I hope to be out of the 220's but if I am not it's ok too because I am taking some sexy exercise classes!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Small Goals

I have a few small goals to help me get through the weight loss process. In the beginning my goal is to break 220, and this morning I weighed 220.0 so I'm right there. After this goal is met they are in 5 lb increments: 215, 210, 205, 200, and so on.

My classes begin tomorrow, I am looking forward to being back, and I've put together my new schedule. This week, my goal is to be at the gym between 6:45 and 7:00 am each morning. I need the time to do everything and not feel rushed. I can have an afternoon workout too after classes are over.

My favorite exercise classes lately are yoga and step. Yoga always calms and relaxes me and even though it doesn't seem like much I get so strong from the poses. Step wasn't something I thought I'd like but I took it anyway and it turned out to be so much fun! It's very military-like and choreographed, more like a form of dancing and all the moves are broken down into quarter-beats.

Well, here I go :)

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Sunday

This morning I weighed 222.6. Since April 2009 I have gained 23.8 pounds, and I forgive myself for it. There it is. I can't change it immediately, and I realize that I can't just starve the day before a weigh in and it will disappear. It didn't take me a week to get here and it won't take a week to undo it.

This year my resolution is to lose weight and get healthy, and I have a plan. This plan involves a gift for myself in one year after achieving the goal of becoming healthy. Many people at the gym trot along on the treadmill with an iPod or the equivalent strapped around their arm, and I want one! I can picture it now... an iTouch strapped on me while I frolic along on the treadmill, zoned out into my own little world of entertainment. The workout flies by and then I triumphantly dismount, going about my business wiping down the machine. My face glistening with sweat and the front of my shirt soaked, I give the thumbs up to the camera. Boy do I look slick with that iTouch strapped on my bicep.

They cost around $350 so I will have to save up some. In a year I could slowly put enough money away to have enough by next year to buy this for myself. There are 365 days in a year so if I put away $1 a day or slightly more I'll have enough. Yeah, my plan seems extrinsically motivated right now, but part of the journey is rediscovering that passion for being fit inside of me, and I feel like I'm just about there.

I've come to the conclusion that any food plan works. Some plans I like more than others, but any plan that I stick to works. I like calorie counting, just not everyday. I like to know what I am eating in advance, and I like it to have been prepared and ready to go. My dad has a big sweet tooth and he buys a lot of pie, ice cream, cake, cookies, candy, etc. My sweet tooth isn't nearly as big as his, but the trouble is that these things are always in my face, and don't require any preparation. This is one of my bigger obstacles, and the key is to be prepared.

So this is a little scattered, but I just wanted to jot some things down for today. I found that I really love reading through my older posts and see what was on my mind 1 year ago or more. I don't remember writing any of it, but it's a joy to have access.

alright, so the homework assignment I am taking up is this: What are your weight gain triggers? what have you let slide recently? What can you realistically do right now to get back on track?

1) One weight gain trigger is a lack of structure. When I don't have a set plan of how I will manage my time throughout the day I tend to drift off plan and go with my impulses of how to spend my time. Another trigger is not planning ahead what I will eat. Even during busy times if I don't have food ready to munch and I come home very hungry I grab whatever is easy and begin gnawing.

2) About mid afternoon is when I begin to eat more, and I don't discriminate. It's usually a meal my family has prepared on the weekends that is harder for me to resist. Yesterday I came home hungry after running some errands and my dad has made BLTs, so this is about the time I let things slide, and experience that sense of entitlement- like if I had a big workout that morning, I'll feel that I should have a 'proper' meal (proper being delicious as opposed to healthy) to hit the spot.

3) I can have filling food ready for when I get hungry and there is nothing to grab but what is easy. I would have to prepare this on the weekend, like making a pot of rice and beans for the next few days to come. I've also contemplated but never went through with adding the afternoon workout, which used to be a staple to my fitness routine. It wasn't anything major, just a stroll in the neighborhood to keep my blood moving. It helps with seasonal affective disorder too, which I tend to have during the shorter winter days. In my case for the next week I could do this to keep my mind away from food in the afternoon.

My situation is going to change once I start classes next week. I have a really lovely schedule this semester, and in order to be successful I will need to plan and manage my time well.