I leave in 3 days now. I've barely got my things packed, but they're all in the general vicinity of my suitcase.
I want to take this moment to proclaim that I have the best mom in the entire world. I can talk to her about anything and she knows exactly what to say. Sometimes my most complex problems only take one sentence from her for me to have clarity. I looooove my mom
Lately I have been searching for love, and the way I have been seeking it out is in religion. I go to both a presbyterian church, and a sunni mosque. When I go to the mosque I wear a head scarf, and I say alhamdullilah! I love to dress up for mass on Sundays, and the pastor is hilarious. I feel warmth and god's presence in both of these places, and I am doing a lot of research to see which one fits me.
So basically, my old obsession with exercise and living healthily has been replaced by an obsession with religion. I read the Qur'an and the Bible constantly.
I was on plan yesterday. Except for exercise I was PERFECT! Eating, water.. <3
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
blah
No one is updating blogspot anymore, it's sad! I feel I'm losing touch with everyone.
10 days till Moscu. I hate packing. I really, really do. I'm excited though. While in Russia it sounds like we'll be eating a lot of fried food. GROSS. It's what they eat though.
two things that are stressing me with this trip:
1) pickpocketting
2) fashion
I'm having trouble adjusting to being out of school again now. I feel really depressed and lonely because I would see my friends all the time there, and now I'm home, and it's just blahh. I find myself just reading and eating this week. I've been active like with cleaning and walking.. gym etc but I'm not as much on-the-go and I really miss that. Eating isn't where I want it yet.. I'll get there, I'm getting better.
10% Challenge.. I am shocked at how many people are participating.. like REALLY. like oh crap now I have to think of a cool prize to give.
10 days till Moscu. I hate packing. I really, really do. I'm excited though. While in Russia it sounds like we'll be eating a lot of fried food. GROSS. It's what they eat though.
two things that are stressing me with this trip:
1) pickpocketting
2) fashion
I'm having trouble adjusting to being out of school again now. I feel really depressed and lonely because I would see my friends all the time there, and now I'm home, and it's just blahh. I find myself just reading and eating this week. I've been active like with cleaning and walking.. gym etc but I'm not as much on-the-go and I really miss that. Eating isn't where I want it yet.. I'll get there, I'm getting better.
10% Challenge.. I am shocked at how many people are participating.. like REALLY. like oh crap now I have to think of a cool prize to give.
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
food/gym/videos/mosque
hello internet
I just finished eating a salad.. working on getting my eating habits back to healthy choices, so far it's not a huge sucess overall, but one step at a time. I did go to the gym today though, that felt fabulous. It was exactly what I needed! I felt uplifted and just happy the rest of the day. Again, trying to exercise more in anticipation of my trip to Russia. I need to be strong and energetic for the duration, and not putter out halfway through all of the excitement.
Lifting weights is definitely on the horizon again, I need that strength back.
Videos coming soon... I'll have a lot more time after this coming Monday.
On a completely different note, I'm going to a family dinner at a Mosque this Saturday with some international students, and I can't tell you how excited I am about it! I bought a scarf to cover my hair, as requested. I'm going to be able to talk to people from all over the world, so exciting.
I just finished eating a salad.. working on getting my eating habits back to healthy choices, so far it's not a huge sucess overall, but one step at a time. I did go to the gym today though, that felt fabulous. It was exactly what I needed! I felt uplifted and just happy the rest of the day. Again, trying to exercise more in anticipation of my trip to Russia. I need to be strong and energetic for the duration, and not putter out halfway through all of the excitement.
Lifting weights is definitely on the horizon again, I need that strength back.
Videos coming soon... I'll have a lot more time after this coming Monday.
On a completely different note, I'm going to a family dinner at a Mosque this Saturday with some international students, and I can't tell you how excited I am about it! I bought a scarf to cover my hair, as requested. I'm going to be able to talk to people from all over the world, so exciting.
Monday, May 11, 2009
jeebus
my spacebar is broken. Nevermind it's not. When I first got on the computer I had to slam down on it in order to get a space but it seems to have fixed itself. I had such a great mother's day, and I'm ready to get my last papers written, and be done with this semester. The only thing is I've got to focus on my weight a little more. Last week out of nowhere I gained 6 lbs. In one week! How is that posible, I'm not sure, but I want to fix it before it turns into 10 lbs.
Yes, it is time for me to get my act together. Not just in terms of poundage, but this past weekend, I was in New York for 2 days. I was exhausted by day two!! This is what not exercising does to me. I can't afford to be tired in Russia, so I need to exercise a lot in order to have enough energy for the entire trip.
ok, I have a paper to write and an online exam to complete, so I ill write more later.
Yes, it is time for me to get my act together. Not just in terms of poundage, but this past weekend, I was in New York for 2 days. I was exhausted by day two!! This is what not exercising does to me. I can't afford to be tired in Russia, so I need to exercise a lot in order to have enough energy for the entire trip.
ok, I have a paper to write and an online exam to complete, so I ill write more later.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Last week of classes
Words just fail me at a time like this.
The closest I can come to express how I feel right now is sentimental. Everything is hitting me all at once right now and it's very overwhelming. I'm trying very hard not to cry. This semester, I feel firmly that I have a place in this world, and that I know how I am going to refine ME to help humankind. More than that, I've connected with a lot of people who I know are in my life for a reason. People who I am positive I was meant to meet. It's an incredible experience, and in a unique atmosphere like the one at this school, I am only more excited for what this next year is going to bring. I've been shown a few more mirrors this semester through the people I've interacted with, and I'm liking what I see reflected back at me. I'm growing. I have a better sense of me. I know that I am emerging as a leader. I expect next semester to be doing a lot more public speaking outside of the classroom, and to hold leadership roles in school.
I'm sorry if that's confusing, and that this blog is becoming so much more than weight loss, but the truth is that I am more than my weight, and right now.. losing weight just isn't important to me. Maintaining or slow weight loss is all I want right now.
The closest I can come to express how I feel right now is sentimental. Everything is hitting me all at once right now and it's very overwhelming. I'm trying very hard not to cry. This semester, I feel firmly that I have a place in this world, and that I know how I am going to refine ME to help humankind. More than that, I've connected with a lot of people who I know are in my life for a reason. People who I am positive I was meant to meet. It's an incredible experience, and in a unique atmosphere like the one at this school, I am only more excited for what this next year is going to bring. I've been shown a few more mirrors this semester through the people I've interacted with, and I'm liking what I see reflected back at me. I'm growing. I have a better sense of me. I know that I am emerging as a leader. I expect next semester to be doing a lot more public speaking outside of the classroom, and to hold leadership roles in school.
I'm sorry if that's confusing, and that this blog is becoming so much more than weight loss, but the truth is that I am more than my weight, and right now.. losing weight just isn't important to me. Maintaining or slow weight loss is all I want right now.
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