ok

back on it. :D

maybe I freaked out a little over the weekend. but Sunday after my 3 day wanton eating I felt so.. blah. and today being a fresh new day I got back on top of things, and I am definitely not experiencing any blahs.

ohh and the first thing I did when I got up this morning @ 5 was drink a bottle of water, and I noticed that I was sweating a lot more on the treadmill, so from now on I'm going to do that

uhh... I had spanish tutoring for the first time today. The tutor is this crazy peruvian lady, but I like crazy spanish ladies. I'm going to be going back to practice more in the future.

for the funky backwards challenge, I've been doing Shanti's challenge mainly. I have been showering in the morning, minus this morning because I just wasn't ready for the weekend to be over. I didn't pack my bag for the shower in school. I've also been putting cream on my body, because it makes me feel SeXaYyyy!! Makeup, not so much. I do wear it, but I really feel my sexiest without it. You see, I like makeup, but I absolutely hate having to keep checking the mirror to make sure it's not messed up. <~ not sexy.

I intend to do the meditations that have been prescribed by the other ladies in the challenge, I just have to make time to do it.

tomorrow I have to give a 5 minute presentation in Spanish, and I am not as nervous as I should be. I have to memorize the speech I wrote out and give it, and be grilled with questions in spanish.

confession

Thursday-Saturday were horrendous. And I swear this happens whenever I get to a goal, that I say 'OK time to relax!' and that's just not how things work, and I KNOW IT which makes me a little more frustrated. You see, I didn't want to announce the halfway loss on youtube because I was standing at the top of the fence on my tippy toes, and I want to be able to make the video and be on the other side, by 3-5 lbs, and going full speed ahead.

this next week will be better. And I know it's laziness + circumstances that have contributed to these past few days, but I've just got to get back on it, I'm hoping that writing about it here helps.

3:30 AM and I need to go back to bed, I just can't sleep. This has me worried it really does

crossing the mark

This morning the scale read 221. This means I've lost 51 pounds total and am also at the halfway mark. I don't think I will be making a video about it this week because I want to have crossed these 2 lines and cross 220 as well.

so my last 3 weigh in's are as follows:

225
226
221

I am concerned that I am not eating enough because I lost 5 pounds in one week. 5 pounds! I'm eating a mostly no processed food diet, except for things like gum because I can't be bothered. I eat every 2 hours, no calorie counting

but now that I think about it this is the first time in a long time where I didn't dine out over the weekend, and I usually eat out 2 times per weekend. When I go to restaurants I eat, not too much, but I'm not choosing non processed or raw food. I may get something like salmon

ok gotta run bye

I have my computer packed away.. normally. People were messing with my crap as usual while I was gone and they openned it and turned it on. I keep it off because it is a huge distraction for me. I get sucked into it like none other! So I'm going to finish up this lesson, relax for a little bit and put it away again!! the school computers are faster and I can't exactly stay on those for too long so I prefer it.

ALMOST 50 LBS LOST. I'M DOING IT!! :D

Ok so the pound I gained last week came off along with another, so I am stoked!! I guess I just needed to be patient. hmm.. everything's going super well, I'm going to New York this weekend to a baby shower and it should be interesting. This person is having her second child and I haven't seen her or her son & husband in years. I am very much looking forward to it. My spanish is already improving, I'm learning a word here and there. I go to the spanish practice sessions outside of class and today I made a friend with this really interesting girl who had studied abroad in Guatemala which is the type of program I am looking to get into. I want to be immersed in the language.

One last thing- HOT TEA. It's so good, I found some licorice tea and it's so good just alone I have it at night and it's like a dessert :]