Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i suck

I put on another 5 lbs in Texas. Total of 10 since my lowest weight ...

I'm going on vacation again tomorrow- this time to Western PA, a place about 6 hours from where I live. My family is going to stay there for about 3 days, to wind down the summer and do some sightseeing. I begin classes again next Monday.

I am feeling so bitter about my predicament with my weight right now. It's pretty frustrating. I hate getting compliments on my weight loss, because it is a work unfinished, and I haven't felt accomplished in that way for some time now. People tell me they admire my willpower and discipline.. what discipline? I am completely sucking at this right now, and I'm losing motivation to continue climbing because it feels like I am running up a muddy and slippery slope. I am either running in place, or if I pause I start sliding backwards very quickly.

2 comments:

Unknown said...

You always write how I'm feeling. I am feeling exactly like you right now. I suck also. We'll get this but it is so frustrating when we are stuck in this pothole. :P

Love you...we'll get there...eventually. :)

Ariana said...

aww nat! im sorry! i know. i have put on a total of 10 pounds since my lowest weight and all summer ive been getting "oh! you have lost a lot of weight comments" and it like no i havent, im slowly gaining it back.... arrgh!

you dont suck. your still awesome to me!