I forgot what account I made to write in, the password, email, everything.. lol so I will write here :) I don't know if anyone reads this anymore, if ya do ::high five:: if not, I am talking to a wall, which is ok too.
Well, classes finished last Friday, which means I have more time to do as I please. I really slacked this semester.. and still made it out with a 4.0. I suppose I am kind of smart then. Or perhaps my teachers are just extremely lenient and nice.. or a combination.
Well, my weight isn't anything pretty to look at. I weighed myself 2 weeks ago and I was 216.0, so I am approaching a 20 pound gain. I decided that I want to work it out by myself and on my own, because truthfully if I don't have it inside of me to pull out of this mess, then maybe I don't have it at all. I know I do, and I have faith in myself. I know I can.
I put away a couple of my old workout t shirts in a bin in the basement this morning. It is my ever growing bin of clothes that fit me in April at a luscious 198.0 lbs, which are just too snug to even try for. It would be nice to wear them again for graduation, they're nice clothes and I really like them! I also like the pictures of myself from the summer where I was looking trim. When I came back from my trip to Russia I remember feeling so fat in all of those pictures, but now that I look back and compare, I actually looked quite nice, and it would be lovely to be like that again. Luckily, it's only 20 pounds away, and comparatively not too insurmountable of a task.
I went to the gym yesterday and today, and It's been different than the other times I've been there. Let me preface my story by saying that I haven't been to the gym before that in 4 weeks, and have been pie-ing it up like you would not believe. Well, anyway I remember that people working out next to me would sometimes be reading books while on the treadmill or elliptical, and I thought.. how could they concentrate? With the bobbing up and down that you do while working out, how could you stay focused? Well, it's actually a lot of fun!! I finished 'Teacher Man' while on the treadmill, now starting 'A Tree Grows in Brooklyn', and the best part is that the time just flew by, I was so into the book. And I remembered how bored I would get on the treadmill before when I would just watch FOX news and CNN playing on the TV screens, and the time would just drag on so painfully slow, I barely could stand 15 minutes. Staying entertained really is key to working the workout.. PLUS I am now able to use my iPod again. It has lots of nice Christmas music on it, I've got Ol' Blue Eyes and Sarah Brightman serenading my workout.
I'll write again soon. If not for the world then just for myself to keep things documented. Have a safe and happy holiday!!!
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I used to read ALL the time on the treadmill and stationary bike! LOVE IT. When I started running outdoors, however, it really became about the meditation of it... and the music :D
20 lbs probably feels awful right now, but it's not undoable. I've gained about 8 since moving to CA and it seems IMPOSSIBLE to lose them. And ultimately from the weight I'm at, I want to lose at least another 15. But that's to get to DREAM goal, so really, why am I bitching?!
Congrats on the 4.0 :D
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Hey girl, I'm so with you. I'm going to be opitmistic & guess that I've gained only around 20 lbs. I wouldn't be surprised if it were more but I'm not willing to find out for sure. I'm not getting on a scale until my clothes that fit before fit again. After the New Year's I'll be getting back on it.
I am glad that you are using this acct again (i couldnt find the other one) I hear ya I really need to get back on the horse too. I have faith in you that you will do it.
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