i suck

I put on another 5 lbs in Texas. Total of 10 since my lowest weight ...

I'm going on vacation again tomorrow- this time to Western PA, a place about 6 hours from where I live. My family is going to stay there for about 3 days, to wind down the summer and do some sightseeing. I begin classes again next Monday.

I am feeling so bitter about my predicament with my weight right now. It's pretty frustrating. I hate getting compliments on my weight loss, because it is a work unfinished, and I haven't felt accomplished in that way for some time now. People tell me they admire my willpower and discipline.. what discipline? I am completely sucking at this right now, and I'm losing motivation to continue climbing because it feels like I am running up a muddy and slippery slope. I am either running in place, or if I pause I start sliding backwards very quickly.